Friday, January 09, 2009

A little lonely, isolated and banned from sugar to boot!



Now 31 weeks and not feeling amazing again and feeling pretty enormous. From the pictures here you can see much I've grown - midwife say my tummy is measuring the same as someone 7 wks ahead of me! Went for yet another scan today and was told fibroids are not growing that much but that I needed to cut back on the sugar. Now, in view of the fact that all lovely things like alcohol, certain cheeses etc are already banned - how do they expect someone like me, with such a sweeeeeeet tooth, is going to cope with not eating sugar? And that, on top of feeling pretty isolated at the moment ain't gonna help me grow in confidence and happiness now is it! Good news is that baby is fine, as it always has been - despite the fact that it's all getting pretty packed in there now with 6 fibroids and one fast-growing bubba.
So, I'm still of the opinion that being pregnant is utter crap and as someone usually not too moody at all I have definitely been affected by the hormonal downs of this situation. I must be such fun to live with. Last night, OH came home and chatted to me for about 30 minutes and then spent the rest of the evening playing on his PS3. I am clearly dull company too at times it seems. I've noted that the only people really who text me/call to check I'm ok are people who've had babies recently and have some level of empathy... oh, and my mother of course! Non-baby friends appear to have lost interest - fair enough really, there's nothing more boring than a moaning pregnant lady.
So, how does one stop oneself from feeling sorry for oneself? Well, for starters, I've got to find more distractions in the evenings as this is definitely when I feel the worst physically. Bubba also becomes incredibly active to the extent where relaxing is rendered impossible. Mornings are the time to get things done so that I can treat myself without guilt in the evenings/afternoons perhaps. Next post will be more positive.